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Nov. 4th, 2001 05:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
csberryI've been trying to get myself mentally stabilized after all of the emotional stuff that I've had to endure over the past month (from the test, to spending a couple of weeks w/o JD, to starting a new job, to moving into a new place). JD and I have been able to make amazing progress in getting ourselves unpacked and situated in our new home. When the repair guys came by yesterday w/ a new furnace and water heater, they thought we'd been here for at least a month.
Work is starting to smooth out some. I'm getting caught up w/ stuff I couldn't do from the hotel and learning what all I can relegate to others. Monday I left around 6pm and was able to get that to 1:30pm on Friday. Hopefully, the days I'm there at 1:30pm are "long days" w/ maybe the exception of the days JD takes me out to lunch.
Ernie has been a bit freaky lately. I've been frazzled and haven't dedicated much of my time to just bonding/loving he and JD. She and I talked a bit about that today and I tried to reassure her that I wasn't turning into a materialistic workaholic. We didn't seem to be connecting several times during our discussion when she kept asking about my goals for myself and the search for myself. I just don't have the mind set of looking for myself...not on the level she kept wanting me to venture in. Maybe because I've done it years ago and am just comfortable in what I do (especially that I'm now able to do work that I love doing) and that life is to experience what you can, enjoy what you can, and help others live their lives in a better way. "But what would make YOU happy," she would ask. Forgive my duty/action outlook, but I can't think in the metaphysical angle that she kept wanting us to take the conversation. Is there something wrong w/ gaining internal pleasure by external actions and reactions? I certainly see the downfall of putting all of your emotional eggs in one basket, but that shouldn't eliminate the good feeling you get in general from external actions/deeds. Nonetheless, by the time the conversation was coming to a close, we restated our love for each other and that we were going to be able to stay w/ each other as we grow as long as we keep communicating.
She then went out for some Mexican fast food for lunch (Taco Cabana). I'm glad she enjoys Mexican than she does Chinese or this place would be complete misery for her. :)
Work is starting to smooth out some. I'm getting caught up w/ stuff I couldn't do from the hotel and learning what all I can relegate to others. Monday I left around 6pm and was able to get that to 1:30pm on Friday. Hopefully, the days I'm there at 1:30pm are "long days" w/ maybe the exception of the days JD takes me out to lunch.
Ernie has been a bit freaky lately. I've been frazzled and haven't dedicated much of my time to just bonding/loving he and JD. She and I talked a bit about that today and I tried to reassure her that I wasn't turning into a materialistic workaholic. We didn't seem to be connecting several times during our discussion when she kept asking about my goals for myself and the search for myself. I just don't have the mind set of looking for myself...not on the level she kept wanting me to venture in. Maybe because I've done it years ago and am just comfortable in what I do (especially that I'm now able to do work that I love doing) and that life is to experience what you can, enjoy what you can, and help others live their lives in a better way. "But what would make YOU happy," she would ask. Forgive my duty/action outlook, but I can't think in the metaphysical angle that she kept wanting us to take the conversation. Is there something wrong w/ gaining internal pleasure by external actions and reactions? I certainly see the downfall of putting all of your emotional eggs in one basket, but that shouldn't eliminate the good feeling you get in general from external actions/deeds. Nonetheless, by the time the conversation was coming to a close, we restated our love for each other and that we were going to be able to stay w/ each other as we grow as long as we keep communicating.
She then went out for some Mexican fast food for lunch (Taco Cabana). I'm glad she enjoys Mexican than she does Chinese or this place would be complete misery for her. :)
